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It’s been such a long time since I was able to get onto mIRC and roleplay with my pack. Mostly because I’ve just had so much homework to do, and keeping up with that and working at the same time is just impossible. It’s pretty annoying, but it’s the truth.
All the time I was away, Jasper was lost. He’d been separated from the pack one day while he was scouting the packlands for threats, and a blizzard struck. He couldn’t get back until it cleared and, by then, the pack had evacuated the area to return home to the EmeraldMyst clearing. There was no trace of them, so Jasper had no idea where they went. He’d been searching for them for a month until stumbling upon the pack once again.
A lot has changed since I’ve been gone. First of all, Amythist’s pups have been born. So far, he’s met Ruebie, the runt of the litter. She acted so cute ^^. But more bad things happened than good, from what I understand so far. Two of my friends are gone. Kuma was banned for insubordination. And Kagetora, well, I just think he left. I don’t really know the reason…I haven’t asked about him yet. I probably should sometime soon.
But what else is interesting is that I’ve tried to get TheJakeman into the roleplay. He joined as Thiago(correct my spelling if it’s wrong…lol). He came on yesterday, and checked it out. He seemed to fit in pretty well with the group in OOC. Which is awesome!
He had to leave pretty quickly, though. And I don’t blame him for that. He’s not exactly been feeling well these past few days. And a computer screen definately doesn’t help with that. I know…I’ve been down that road several times myself.
I just hope he decides to come back once in a while ^^. It would be nice to have a real friend around the pack.
UPDATE:
Well, it turns out Kagetora didn’t leave at all. Instead, he’s also one of Amy’s pups. Scyanite. Also, I’d planned to put a banner for the pack on this post. So…here it is!
Where’s the Chemistry?
Alright. I’m here, at school. And I have just blown my fuse and am about to freak out on everyone in my Media Arts group. I’ve written about it before, and I’m sure as hell gonna write it out again. I’ve just had it with these guys. One of them way more than the others.
Well, sure, they came up with this idea. Wow. Good for you. Now, do you have ANYTHING to put together? Any interesting camera angles? No? How about a little more detail in your storyline? No again? Wow. Who would have thought that was possible with Nathan? I sure did!
That’s it. I’ve put my best foot forward for an entire week for this video assignment, and everything I do is literally shot down. And by who? Someone who’s not even going to pass high school. Do you people think that it just might be possible that I am the one who knows what he’s doing? I’ve averaged at 80% for pretty much my entire high school career. I have plans to go into art for my future. Do you think it’s possible that I know what I’m doing, compared to someone who just wants to smoke and get high all the time?
What is wrong with you people? Seriously.
Goodbye. I’d rather take a zero than work with you ever again.
So, good luck, eh? Find yourselves another nerd.
Why not?
This is another rant about school. About how stupid some people can be. Or just how stubborn I am. You can take a pick of which it is when you’ve finished reading.
Well, a few days ago, we were in Media Arts class, and we had to come up with an idea for our next video to produce. Well…my group had no real ideas. But I had one, and I offered it up. Of course, it was just a few little thoughts of mine that seeped onto a lined piece of paper, and I understood when they said that they didn’t understand.
And so, I took the idea home with me, and gave some thought to it. I even wrote it up for about 2 hours in a kind-of story format, so there was no possible way that they wouldn’t understand. I come to them and let them read the draft the next day…and they were hardly pleased. All they really said was “This is too hard”. Really. That’s it.
I had everything pieced together, except for one little part. I could see it all playing through my head. I knew exactly what needed to be done to get the project done. And they say it’s too hard. The thing had an incredible story compared to others seen in that class from last semester. I had ALL the scenes planned out. All the vocals. Even the songs to put the video to! And they claim it was too freaking HARD?!
I just left. Because what they said was just so rediculous. Again, I’m thrown with the lazy group. And like I said, I wasn’t going to do all the work. I didn’t push it any further.
Basically(if you don’t understand, let me give you the full synopsis thing), it was about this “shadow” person. We start with him in a dark room, with evening light seeping into the window, and making eerie shadows on the ground. Things we could just get by spending one day at someone’s house. Well, the creature explains that he wasn’t always like a shadow. He was a good person, but temptation lured him to being bad. And as hard as he tried, he could never get away from the evil.
There’s more detail to it, for sure. Again, everything’s been planned already.
All I’m thinking is. Why are you guys just going to settle for something that’s satisfactory, when we’ve got a crisp piece of work to work with right here? They want to do a biking video. That’s all they know so far. rant
Seriously? You guys don’t even have any idea what you’re doing.
And don’t expect my help. My ideas are crap, remember?
And so, TheJakeman has kindly agreed to do the video with me. If it doesn’t happen, that’s alright. Because I know that he’s still appreciating the effort I put into making this thing up.
My group made me feel so insulted. I live to create stories.
Back to being behind.
Well, it’s come again. I’m falling behind with my schoolwork, and life in general.
Last week friday, we had a handful of tests for certain classes. And for 2 of the three I had no time to study. The only one I did have time to study for, well…the studying wasn’t very much. I almost went into that test being nervous. And I am never that way when it comes to tests, because that will only get in the way of my memory. Basically, I had to rely on my memory of the lessons. Which, fortunately, came quite easily to me. At least, I hope it did…Maybe I was writing wrong answers for everything without even noticing it.
I’ve just been exhausted the past week or so, and it’s affecting my mood. I’ve been so negative towards everything, especially in my thoughts. And when I see assignments passing by me, and I know that it’s just not possible to do everything that I need to to keep on top of life, my future dreams, and my homework…well, it’s just depressing.
I don’t know. Things just haven’t been turning out for the better in my life. And I’ll admit, that I just might be a little depressed from it all. I’ve always had the mentality that being positive all the time, or just joking about everything, would be enough to keep me happier. But I just can’t keep that mentality anymore.
What also doesn’t help, is when people don’t show up at work. We had another case of that, and this time, I don’t really know the reason behind it. Simply put, we had NO dishwasher on friday. And NO dishwasher, means UTTER CHAOS! We were all scrambling all day to finish our work and the dishwasher’s work(which none of us really knew how to do). I was there till 8:30 that night. Luckily for them, my social life has all but vanished since I’ve been working there. Another reason for my feeling horrible.
I just want to sleep. But there can’t be any sleep for me, because there’s just too much to do. Why do I have to work full time and a half, and still be expected to get through with everything else in my life?
Fast-Paced Frenzy
Every other week, as a bunch of people already know, I attend the breakfast club at Beacon Christian High School. It’s a place where a few of the Beacon high school students get together, hang out, eat breakfast and do devotions in the morning. I know what you’re thinking. I’m not a Beaconite. Well…I have a bunch of great friends who are, and this is one of the great ways I can be with them! I wish I could go every week, but I have chapel at my school every other week as well.
Well, this week was pretty nice. I tried to do a traditional French breakfast that we had in France while I was there. Croissants(which turned into bagels), with ham and cheese. I also had some honey and grapes in there for a little “spice”.
But it wasn’t the food I brought this time that made a click in my mind. It was what we talked about in devotions.
The underlying idea was: American society is fastpaced. We are possessions-rich, but we aren’t time-rich.
Sure, I already figured that everything moved just too quickly in our society. And I’d already made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t let this fast-paced attitude get the better of me. But, it turns out, that I’ve already broken that promise to myself.
Recently, I believe that I’ve just been moving so quickly that I’ve been losing sight of how to do things and actually enjoy them. I’ve been killing myself with work, homework, artwork, writing-work(hehe) and the whole bit(with some video games in there somewhere) recently.
I can no longer piece together things through creative thinking. I used to put together stories in my mind like there was no tomorrow, and fight with myself about which one to START(key word). Now, I get nothing, even when I’ve got an assignment to create story for Media Arts.
I’m unmotivated to do much digital work on the computer, simply because scanning is such a pain in the butt. Not only that, but I’ve been pushing it to the side in order to get all my other work finished.
Something about today’s devotions seemed to spark something in me. Maybe this self-realization that I can’t escape from the common fast-paced society that I live in no matter how hard I try.
But I don’t care. I’ll still try. I don’t want to live life in a way that drains all the fun from it. I want to be the kid me forever. I want to be fun, for my friends, for my kids if ever I have any. Because I know what it feels like to not have fun parents(for the most part). It’s not much their fault, and I don’t blame them for anything. I just want my kids to enjoy life like I do, and not to think that life is just another chore.
It’s France/Italy Time!
I’m so excited! Other than packing and buying odds and ends, everything is finished for the trip. All the payments are paid(and choking my bank account at 2000). Now, I’ve just got to memorize my entire French-English dictionary….YEA RIGHT!
We leave this Friday at 1:15. And it will be about a 6 hour flight overnight, through the turbulance of the Atlantic ocean. We’ll see how well it goes. I’m also kind of worried about going to Italy…seeing as I don’t speak a word of Italian.
I’ll post more about this when I get back! And expect…pictures!
Coming Up Short?
For those of you who know me: This post isn’t about me being a shrimp =P.
Well, work’s been going nice recently. Besides a few broken plates today, it’s just been smooth sailing. I tell you…it’s hard to navigate in that kitchen…the trolleys JUST fit.
We had a meeting last week Wednesday, telling us that Reba has now taken a full-time position and is in charge of us. She tells us something, we do it. I think she’ll do a great job. She’s quite reasonable. They also pointed out some things that we should be doing a little better. Nothing too serious.
But, today while I was going about my usual rounds on the 2:30 – 3:30 shift of doing desserts, I discovered something new. Apparently, I’m not supposed to be doing them anymore. Instead, it’s the new dishwasher’s job. Ron. I can understand that, seeing as this and last week we were working on desserts together.
It’s nice that they tell me this…I wish they woulda told me at 2:30 so I coulda gone home earlier =P. I asked the managers-in-training about it. They didn’t know. I also asked Jan, a co-manager, and she also didn’t know. But she assured me that if Paul was the one to tell me this, it was true. And I trust Paul.
But what’s also strange is the fact that I had Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off this week(previous), and that I don’t have any shifts on those days the coming week. I like to believe that they’re being considerate of the fact that I’m going off to France in a week, and are giving me the time to prepare. If so, I’ve gotta thank them ^^.
But, if I don’t have my regular shifts when I come back…I’m gonna wonder. I don’t want to have three days off like that. I’d rather work at least one of them. So…if my schedule is like that, I’ll just mention to them that I want either Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday as a work day.
And again, Ernesto didn’t show up for work today. I wonder what his story will be for today. lol. But we were good. We still had 4 people(the new guy, Chris, was training for lunch today. He’s actually really good. I gotta talk to him more.) We were still done by 2:30.
So…I’ll see if my schedule changes next week, and decide on what to do from there.
Thanks for readin ^^
Start of Something New
Yesterday, my pack went through a traumatic event. Planned. But still traumatic. For weeks, we had planned that night to be the start of something new. And finally, it had been executed.
We began with Ashur and our Alpha, Aventurine literally biting at each other’s throats in a battle. I was alongside Aventurine, offering my support if he needed it. Fortunately, before any serious fighting happened, Ashur had to leave and so the fight ended with him retreating.
Imediately after that, however, a crack louder than thunder had been heard reverberating between the mountains, soon followed by a deep rumble. An avalanche had happened, and was heading straight for the clearing in which the EmeraldMyst pack is situated. Panic broke loose(and it was some crazy hard-to-follow roleplay with everyone posting at the same time), and everyone scattered. Some remained behind in an attempt to help the others get free(I followed Aventurine, and ran with Amythist, who is pregnant with pups, until Kagetora was beginning to follow behind. And so I broke from Amy and cleared the way of snow for Kage to make his retreat easier).
Through this truggle, though, Zircon got caught in the avalanche and perished through a painful death. In real life, the player of Zircon is heading off to the military, and won’t be able to be with us much anymore. And so, he decided to kill of his character. That was quite the scene with him and Darklight.
Lazuli, Aventurines daughter, also died in the avalanch. Along with one of our other Battalions, Obsidian.
They’ll all be missed.
This whole thing took quite a while, also considering the fact that we started 2 hours later than we planned to. Afterwards, near our refuge on a cliff, several others got buried(MoonWeaver, I believe) and Aventurine. Aventurine broke some of his limbs, but survived.
With Aven out of commission, I wonder how things are going to turn out between Ashur and him. I might have to do some fighting in the near future…lol. I always get nervous when that happens.
So, with our packlands destroyed, we cannot live at home. And so, we are likely going to be staying with WhiteWolf and her pack, SpiritRivers. From what I understand so far, anyway.
If you’re interested, I can e-mail you the entire log of the roleplay. I saved it to my computer…and I would look at it again.
Sat, Feb 23rd Pack Meeting.
Well, I couldn’t be there this time. Which I felt pretty bad about, seeing as the turnup for our past pack meeting was the worst I’ve seen in my history as a roleplayer. I was thinking about it all the time I was working while the packmeeting was being held, wondering how it was going to turn out.
Well, I managed to get on last night. And wow…Amythist was so happy. She was like, begging me to get on and ignore my homework because there were loads of peeps there. About 24 were there at one time…and I don’t know if I’ve ever seen that many during a day with a pack meeting.
I heard about everything that happened. The list is insane. DemonCrystal(one of my fave wolves in the pack) was promoted to Battalion, joining me. Which is really cool. Maybe once her legs heal we’ll go scouting together.
Kuma and Shasta(two very fine wolves who have just kept the numbers rolling in for new recruits) were both promoted to Omega. Congratz you two! Really…Omega is an insult to you guys. And congratz for making the very first Wolves of the Month.
Kagetora, Kiko, Masahide, BlackOnyx, Ashur, and Daciana were all promoted to Omega as well. Congratz!
OpalFire was promoted to Packmate
See? A lot of new recruits. Hey, Jakeman, you gotta get in on this action sometime! I know you wanna =P.
We’re going to be starting with a new plot on Wednesday. I know what it’s basically going to be about, but I won’t say anything =P. That’ll probably show up later that night or Thursday, granting that I can make it.
Jordan Bergeron wants me over to his house…but I don’t think I want to go. For more reasons than this new plotline.
But, perhaps the best news there is, is that DarkAzure(Sangre) has finally returned. After some internet troubles, and other troubles, she’s made it back. I hope she’s doing alright. I know this fact because I read it on my packleader’s journal on LiveJournal.
When’ll it stop?
Alright. I’ve just about had it. How do people get the idea that they can just take advantage of me left and right? Am I really that pathetic, to take the crap that everyone gives me and just do it for them?
Last thursday/friday I was ready to toss trash from my mouth at my group in English class. I decided to wait to post this so I didn’t throw in any unneccessary swear words in here. Well, we were assigned a drawing project to draw things that related to a poem on a sheet of paper maybe…double the size of your average 8 and a half by 11 paper. And this is a group project.
Well, my group gave me a bull story about “Oh, we’re not artists, we can’t draw. You’re the only artist, you do it” sort of thing. Which totally threw me for a loop. The teacher SPECIFICALLY said that this isn’t a judgement on your artistic ability. But they insisted that I do it all, no matter how much I talked to them.
That’s been happening for ages. This where people are just too lazy to get off their butts and do the freaking work themselves. Art class, English class, whatever. It’s always the group projects.
I was about to go up to the teacher and just say that they did absolutely nothing for this project, and don’t deserve any mark whatsoever. But, me being a stupid idiot, just let it slide. But seriously…that won’t ever happen again. If I get stuck doing all the work…well, I just won’t do it. I’ll get my part done. And then I’ll just mention to the teacher that I did everything I need to, and that I refuse to pick up the slack of the lazy group members.
So, basically what I’m saying now is this. If you plan to take advantage of my skills and time, don’t expect anything out of it. I’ve had enough of people sitting back and watching me do all the work.
