Judgements
Have you ever had a time where your own stubborness completely blocks the truth? Like, you have this mindset that a person is a certain kind of person, but really, they are someone who is completely different than you thought they were? I sure hope you follow me….because, seriously, I can’t really explain it any other way.
Well, that’s what happened to me on Monday. Ivalyo was one of the council members in my old pack, SweetBreeze, which had been “disbanded”. Many of the members(specially picked ones) from that pack were invited to join a new pack that Dagda(Amythist) was forming, called EmeraldMyst. Ivalyo(Aventurine he goes by in EmeraldMysts) was to be our Alpha Male.
Well, in SweetBreeze, I had some beef with Ivalyo. And to be honest with you, I have no idea why. It’s just…every time that he signed on, I just got a bad vibe from him. And that completely molded the way I felt about him. I, literally, hated him then, for no good reason whatsoever.
You could easily call it prejudice, and would have hit the nail right on the head.
But something completely changed that opinion within 3 hours on Monday. Monday, Febuary the 4th was to be our second packmeeting. But, out of the 30 or so packmembers, only 4 of us showed up. Aventurine, me, DemonCrystal, and Lazuli.
This was when it all started. He didn’t care that were were the only packmembers here. (These meetings are supposed to be manditory) He still went on with it. Throughout this entire meeting, I noticed something completely different about him. Or…it was something completely different about my perception of him. He was a wonderful leader. A quality I thought he would never have.
That packmeeting between the four of us was so emotional. We could feel the disappointment that Aven had for everyone else. And I really felt sorry for him. He put so much time and effort into this pack, and we were the only ones who seemed to care about it.
He was actually a really REALLY decent, and nice person. And all along, I thought him as a jerk who didn’t really care about anyone. What a slap in the face for me…
But what really changed me wasn’t that. It was what happened after I explained this entire scenario of me hating him and him totally not deserving it that did it for me.
From what I could tell, he completely understood when I explained to him how I had felt back then and how I did at that moment. I was sorry from the depths of my heart, and I think he knew that.
What happened right after that, though, was that he admitted to being the reason that SweetBreeze broke up in the first place. I won’t go into detail for his sake…but really, it put a firm stamp on my new opinion of our Alpha.
Once, I thought he wasn’t fit to lead us. But now, I can see no other leader better than him. I don’t think I could do a better job. It’s amazing how just a few hours can totally change your perception of someone.
Isn’t it?
